between the raindrops

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goodnight, i knew it's been the second weeks after new year.

happy new year everyone! I'm so sorry for this belated greeting, because i had no time to meet and greet or post something here before. 2013. hopefully it can be a better year than 2012. and hopefully all my dreams come true and everything's alright on the right track. actually i'm so happy in the beginner of this year because god still gave chances to be surrounded by my families, friends and all those people i loved. what's my resolutions? let it be my another-secrets.

anyway, today earth's so cruel and so cold. between the raindrops, my memories spin around my head. flash back in my previous year, there were so many things that i can learned from. sweet memories or even the bitters, they gave me something to learn, something that can make me even stronger, something that can make me understand what life is. life isn't always about finding someone or something then live with them, but also losing someone or something. 

2012 gave me so much memories. even if it hurt you, it also might gave you so many things to learn and so many things to remember. between the raindrops, in front my glasses window, i typed everything i've known, i've felt and i've learned from my bitter-sweet-2012. i called it my track-record. 

January-May, there was someone who always be there on my side, kept me close, understand me, taught me everything i never understand. June, broke up with him. it was the worst heartbreak i ever felt, so hurt. who i loved is the only one who hurt me so deep, so hurt. my June wasn't as easy as another months, even if it was a very long holiday. July, still had a "joyful" holiday and my heart still blinded by broken-heart. August, my first month on 12th grader. i wasn't ready for this because i knew my time on senior-high-school gonna end soon. September-October, school time, i had not enough time to have another holiday because school time had made me busy. November, Happy sweet seventeenth, dear IndahKPutri! on my day i was so happy with so many surprises from friends and families too. and finally i got my licenses card and identity card (ktp). and on this month I still tried to move on and i guess i can... December, the last-sweet-month. i still covered by this pain, i never had a courage to fall in love, too scared to try, too scared to be hurt again. i knew i never try to find them, i just wait for the only one man who can makes my heart beats faster and can makes me his only one, i wouldn't try to be with a wrong one. on new year's eve i had spent a high quality time with my big families at Bali Handara Kosaido, Bedugul. some of bitter memories played in my minds, memories of a year ago (skip it). 

at the first day on 2013, in the morning, i felt like i was the only one girl who's lucky! because my "closest-friend" came to my place at Bali Handara and we had some quality time too. yeahh just for a few hours but it was so memorable. thanks, my monkey-man.

2013! i'm ready for something new, for better things.  and i'm ready for my future, my bright-future. making all my dreams come true, and be a pride for my parents. become a success doctor and if i can, i want to be an interior designer too. i knew, my 2013 might not be as perfect as fairy tales, but surrounded by parents, families, friends and best-friends can make me feel complete. they and you complete me to catch all my dreams. 2013, please be my year. between the raindrops, i let my dreams flow away.....

quotes of the day

#4

"expectation is the root of all heartache" 
william shakespeare 

i agree with this quote. so from now on please be real, stop expecting too high, stop wanting someone or something that you've known it'll never be yours. just be real and you'll free from heartache. stay young and pretty and free but limited. 

quotes of the day

#3

"letting go is not always about forgetting the past, but living and growing for a better future. being single won't give you 100% happiness, but it will keep you from the pain"

Dunia itu adil...

"if we learn to celebrate other's, achievements we learn to be happy with ourselves and our differences. we discover that no one is perfect in every way and we become more compassionate about human nature. when we celebrate our friend's success, we know we are in very good company" - Nikki Goldstein.

ketika kamu mengalami kegagalan dan kekecewaan mendalam terhadap dirimu sendiri, jangan pernah katakan "dunia tidak adil" atau bahkan "tuhan tidak adil". setiap orang yang dilahirkan ke dunia itu sebenarnya sama, namun zaman sekarang banyak yang terlahir dengan anggota badan kurang lengkap (cacat). itu bukan tidak adil namanya, itu adil. remember KARMA. karma di masa lalu menentukan kelahiran di masa selanjutnya.

Jangan pernah meremehkan orang lain. mungkin di mata kita orang itu tidak ada apa-apanya dibanding kita tapi bisa saja tidak begitu dengan kenyataannya. terlalu optimis dan merasa diri lebih bisalah yang kadang membuat kita merasa berada di atas awan dan menjadikan kita takabur. bersikaplah biasa-biasa saja. di atas langit masih ada langit, di bawah tanah masih ada tanah.

"DUNIA itu adil, cuma kita aja yang gak bisa mengolahnya" - indahkputri.

ketika kamu gagal dan merasa dunia itu tidak adil, ingat-ingatlah quote dari saya :D

tadinya sebelum menulis post ini, aku merasa kecewa dan gagal sama diriku sendiri. aku juga sempat menyalahkan dan menaruh rasa benci&iri sama orang lain. lalu setelah  kupikir-pikir dan salah satu temanku mengingatkan, aku sadar, buat apa aku menyesali sesuatu yang sudah terjadi? buat apa aku benci sama orang yang belum tentu salah? buat apa terpuruk dalam kegagalan dan kekecewaan? bisa saja kan selama ini ternyata usahaku tidak segigih dia sampai-sampai aku lengah? ya bisa-bisa aja.

intinya, jangan salahkan orang lain dan tuhan dan dunia ini kalau kamu gagal, kecewa atau apalah. semuanya udah diatur sama tuhan. mungkin itu jalan yang terbaik buat kita supaya kita gak gampang lengah dan takabur sampai-sampai meremehkan orang lain. keep fighting for the best. jangan pernah iri sama kesuksesan orang lain. just do it, Karmany eva dhikaraste, berusahalah yang terbaik karena itu adalah kewajibanmu. kalau kita udah usaha maksimal, gak akan ada usaha yang sia-sia walaupun usaha itu gagal, setidaknya kita udah usahalah.

p.s. aku gak ngerti kenapa tiba-tiba jadi sok motivator begini. yak happy reading, semoga berguna \(' 0 ')/

quotes of the day

#2

"Very often a change of self is needed more than a change of scene."

quotes of the day

#1 

 “the man who told you he has forgot his first love is a liar, because first love will never be forgotten. be aware.”