end of season

gooodnight, this is my another-midnight-post. i just got home an hour ago and i feel so tired now but i can't sleep after my third times bath. i dont know how to describe my feeling this night. am i happy? am i sad? i should feel happy or sad? i dont know. just dont know. 

our lovely holiday is almost end. 2 days remain before new year eve. what i have done in my very lovely holiday? i've done too many things with every people i love. so happy  and i dont want this holiday ends soon! we want moremoremoreee holiday, Mam! as a 12grader, i know i have no more time to get on a normal holiday, it feels like i will have no more time to relax after this very-lovely-holiday.

because of it, 2 weeks, 14days of holiday i spent with my families and friends. i feel there was something different with these 14days in my life. i can further get to know myself, become more mature, more independent, and free but controlled.

i just got home after my very long trip with my beloved friends, IXA of SBI SMP 1 Denpasar who graduated 3 years ago. not all 22 of us can took apart on our trip, only half of us, 11 members, 4 man and 7 ladies, chaired by our lovely Igo, today December 27th. we gathered at my home at 12 but as usual as always NGARET. we went to kuta as we planned, and it spent long time to get there, Seminyak Square. blablablablablabla.......... super macet. seminyak was so crowded this day (not only today, always. think twice before go there) and it took too long time to get there. when we got there, we immediately headed to The Braga Cafe & Resto because we were hungry. after had dinner, we stuck and confused to go anywhere because the road was so crowded. it's traffic everywhere! finally we decided to go to Nav Karaoke. spent an hour there then we went home. 9.30pm i arrived at home, took a bath and now i'm sitting on my bed in front of my laptop, typing my experiences with tired body, sleepy head. and i just realized that the last few days i've always been coming home late. two days ago, on Christmas (Merry Christmas, everyone!) i've spent a high quality time with my best friends ever, my sisters, Kental. went to cinema to watch the must-watched-movie, 5CM at Galeria21. then had a very late lunch after movie at Warong Miyabi. i drove car to Centro but suddenly we changed direction to Nusa Dua, spent time at Pirates Bay, hahahihi dulu, didnt forget to take photos and we almost forgot that we had to go home and prepare gifts for our friends, Otit aka Gungtu. and blablablaaaaa......

left:mayna, nindya, me, wica, deva

and most important thing from this holiday, i learned that everyone really needs each other, we really need families and friends. what would become a holiday without them? it would be bored and flat! trust me... suwer dehhhh! even though sometimes it is really tiring hang out and spend a lot of time, money and effort too but for me nothing is more beautiful and precious than all those memories. the secrets we tell, the laughs we share, the photos we take and memories we keep those are the most valuable things in life. won't forget this holiday! suwerdeeehhh...
anyway this is my last holiday in senior high school, it was the end of season senior high school. furthermore it may not be as beautiful as these 14days. i'll keep it tight in my box of memories, my brain and my heart.
goodnight, have a nice holiday. see you on New Year <3

love, trust. betrayed, broke up, the end. get back? never ever!

twinkle twinkle

goodnight, good sleep beauty princess

twinkle twinkle little stars, when there's nothing he shines upon show your little light. how i wonder what you are. twinkle twinkle through the night.

it's been a year since i moved here to my home sweet home. stayed and spent half of my day, everyday in a year, in my big-white-colored room, makes me feel so bored. i need to decorate my room. at least just give the light accent like it shown on the picture above. so cute right? yes of course! i really really want it to be realized! where i can get the lamps? waiiiiittt! aku baru sadar aku gak punya duit. raawwrrrr look into my wallet, there's not enough money to buy all those things to make that sweet night lamp. nonononoooo not enough money. mama won't lend me her money. i've spent too much on my holiday trip. a beautiful night lamp, twinkle in my room every night. how sweeeettt. okeoke jadi sekarang planning harus jadi kenyataan, HARUS! supaya gak boring dikamar malem2. I've to collect enough money as soon as possible! wish me luck. where i can get the lamps, anywaaaayyy? anyone?

ps: it's really unimportant post. i just need to write, there was no other ideas ya jadinya ini ajadeh :$ goodnight

under my blanket

happy holiday everyone. so excited in these 2 weeks holiday. horaaaayyyyy!!! what's on my holiday? well, i will proudly tell you about this one. last August, 31st - September, 2nd 2012 me and my family had a highly quality holiday in Singapore. who don't know Singapore? it is one of the-must-visit-country and the country where technology is their closest friend. we've planned this holiday for a long long time ago and we decided not to visit Singapore again but planned to visit Bangkok. Unfortunately because of some reasons finally we decided to visit Singapore once again and tadaaaa without feeling bored we enjoyed our holiday here in Singapore. 4 days in Singapore with our lovely guide Mr. Alan from Malaysia were very interesting and really unforgettable. We visited the-must-visited-place and the amazing one was The Universal Studio of Singapore at Sentosa Island. On our last visit longlongtimeago before, we didn't had enough time to visit US because my father was very busy with his school in Singapore school of medicine. On the 2nd days of our travelling,we fulled with joy and happiness at US Singapore. we tried all the rides games: transformers, Madagascar, ancient Egypt, Jurassic park,  Hollywood, New York, and also Red & Blue Track Roller-coaster.  

My favorite one and the one that I really couldn't and won't forget forever is the underground roller-coaster at Ancient Egypt. It was a freaking scary roller coaster! can you imagine? yes it's so recommended for you. you won't regret after trying this one. it is so cool you know wuhuuu... when i entered the Ancient Egypt it didn't look like there's something scary inside here until i reached where the queue there were so many people with the face of fear. my father and my sister looked so scared and so did I. But there was no way to exit and we finally tried that underground roller-coaster. it was dark inside, anyway, we couldn't see the route of this roller-coaster make it more scarier. we just screamed as loud as we can. 

Ancient Egypt

Sci-Fi City - Transformers

Still at Sentosa Island, after finished all games at US we had dinner at one of favorite Restaurant here. after dinner Mr. Peter picked us to Songs Of The Sea Show. The show was really amazing. I forgot the story told in this show but I've recorded all the show *sorry it couldn't be posted here, the size were too big* 

this second day ended after the show of Song Of The Sea, we went back to hotel at 183 Selegie road and took a rest and prepared for the next amazing day. Goodnight...

Good morning, 3rd day in Singapore. We had a tour to Jurong Bird Park, City Tour and tried Singapore flyer. After it all done, Mr.Alan dropped us to Orchard road and we went shopping!!! yuhuuuuu... my father bought this for me tadaaaa 2pairs of the original VANS shoes. so lovely. ohya and one free bag at price of 56SD, how lucky.

the 4th day in Singapore meant our last day of travelling. we walked from selegie to orchard then we walked to Bugis to buy souvenirs for our relatives in Indonesia. It was a tiring day because we walked half day long. Selegie to Orchard actually very close by car but it is so far on foot. at 3pm Mr.Alan picked us at hotel then he dropped us at Changi airport. we boarded at 8.25pm and touched down Bali at 12am. 

so lovely 4days in Singapore. that was unforgettable. Now i'm here under my blanket with my phone besides me and my stitch doll on my bed, preparing myself to face the truth if today is already Monday, September, 3rd 2012 and it means holiday is gonna end shortly. I'm hungry anyway so i'm decided to end up writing this post. just wait for the next post, keep on reading blogwalking. good afternoon, happy holiday \( 'o' )/

Jegeg Bagus Badung, Benoa 2012

Jegeg Bagus Badung 2012 held on Thursday, 26 Juli 2012 by Government of Badung to explore the potential of young generation. and i'm taking a part in this competition. luckily I got the second place, the runner up. this was my very first time join a competition like this. 

Finalis Jegeg 2012

winner of jegeg bagus badung, benoa 2012

me & my partner

crush

it's been a month. i still can feel this heartache (hurt) but i think it's better standing alone than standing with people who hurt me. yeah it's right, almost 100% right. doing positive things and spending quality time with friends slowly cure this hurt and over time i think it's enough to continue to dissolve in these grief. people come and go easily in my life. they come with new things i never imagine i could have before. some bring happiness and some just leave a mere expectation. right, that's just what people do as attention seeker and that's the easiet way to hate each other. what is life? what is love? they are just such complicated things that couldn't be separated. nowadays, pure and fake are indistinguishable. the fake looks so pure, while we don't even know it was just a shit actually. this is why sometimes i don't easily believe in people. a trauma of being hurt. a betrayal trauma.

holiday session #part2

July, 1st 2012

so, I got it.
Bahagia itu adalah...

spent such an amazing holiday with nindyak, trisnu and dewik at Bedugul. it couldnt be described. it was soooo amazing holiday trip ever. we had picnic at Eka Karya Botanical Garden Bedugul carried so many foods and snacks, tried outbound (mission failed, too expensive and we didnt bring enough money), have fun on the road around botanical garden (I meant skating on the rise and falls street around it), went to strawberry stop just wanted to see strawberry fields, and the last and the most amazing got wet because of an accident tried speed boat at Beratan Lake (unplanned), and didnt forget to take photos.

left: trisnu, dewik, nindya, me

strawberry stop's field

get wet and it's so cold you knooooww (beratan lake)

way back to denpasar

uhuuuuwww you know? this is such an unforgettable holiday ever, especially trip at Beratan lake =D shocked by an accident of the speed boat, we got wet and almost fell from the bout because the boat rudder rope broke, and stupidly we thought we've been tricked by the boat driver's maneuver but it was truly an accident. we became wet and shivered, especially nindya. time's out, we went back to denpasar and prepared to watch for Euro Cup Final Espana vs. Italy. so lovely day! we promised to have some more days out together.

holiday session #part1

what we wanted is coming! holiday holiday holidaaaaayyy! are you ready to go? aku siap aku siap!

yesterday, June 21st 2012, i had my first holiday trip without any plans before with devipramesti, diannoviyanti and ayutami. The sudden ideas always more fun! depik sent me a message to hang out with ayutami and nopik, without much thought I joint them. depik picked me up at home at about 1.30PM then we went to Denpasar Junction, while nopik and ayutami already waited us there. first thing we did is bought some snack at bread talk and our favorite partner, AQUA hihihi. have a quality time at inul vizta, we sang some galau song and we were happy! after 2 hours spent time at inul vizta, we had lunch at cafe teduh and our trip ended when depik drove me home.

another holiday another trip with another friends and families were waiting. too many plans for this amazing holiday before i have focus for college preparation. happy holiday guysssss <3

Dunia itu adil...

"if we learn to celebrate other's, achievements we learn to be happy with ourselves and our differences. we discover that no one is perfect in every way and we become more compassionate about human nature. when we celebrate our friend's success, we know we are in very good company" - Nikki Goldstein.

ketika kamu mengalami kegagalan dan kekecewaan mendalam terhadap dirimu sendiri, jangan pernah katakan "dunia tidak adil" atau bahkan "tuhan tidak adil". setiap orang yang dilahirkan ke dunia itu sebenarnya sama, namun zaman sekarang banyak yang terlahir dengan anggota badan kurang lengkap (cacat). itu bukan tidak adil namanya, itu adil. remember KARMA. karma di masa lalu menentukan kelahiran di masa selanjutnya.

Jangan pernah meremehkan orang lain. mungkin di mata kita orang itu tidak ada apa-apanya dibanding kita tapi bisa saja tidak begitu dengan kenyataannya. terlalu optimis dan merasa diri lebih bisalah yang kadang membuat kita merasa berada di atas awan dan menjadikan kita takabur. bersikaplah biasa-biasa saja. di atas langit masih ada langit, di bawah tanah masih ada tanah.

"DUNIA itu adil, cuma kita aja yang gak bisa mengolahnya" - indahkputri.

ketika kamu gagal dan merasa dunia itu tidak adil, ingat-ingatlah quote dari saya :D

tadinya sebelum menulis post ini, aku merasa kecewa dan gagal sama diriku sendiri. aku juga sempat menyalahkan dan menaruh rasa benci&iri sama orang lain. lalu setelah  kupikir-pikir dan salah satu temanku mengingatkan, aku sadar, buat apa aku menyesali sesuatu yang sudah terjadi? buat apa aku benci sama orang yang belum tentu salah? buat apa terpuruk dalam kegagalan dan kekecewaan? bisa saja kan selama ini ternyata usahaku tidak segigih dia sampai-sampai aku lengah? ya bisa-bisa aja.

intinya, jangan salahkan orang lain dan tuhan dan dunia ini kalau kamu gagal, kecewa atau apalah. semuanya udah diatur sama tuhan. mungkin itu jalan yang terbaik buat kita supaya kita gak gampang lengah dan takabur sampai-sampai meremehkan orang lain. keep fighting for the best. jangan pernah iri sama kesuksesan orang lain. just do it, Karmany eva dhikaraste, berusahalah yang terbaik karena itu adalah kewajibanmu. kalau kita udah usaha maksimal, gak akan ada usaha yang sia-sia walaupun usaha itu gagal, setidaknya kita udah usahalah.

p.s. aku gak ngerti kenapa tiba-tiba jadi sok motivator begini. yak happy reading, semoga berguna \(' 0 ')/

dear someone...

play this song while you read the lyrics.

You've come to tell me something you say I ought to know
That he don't love me any more, and I'll have to let him go
Now you say you're gonna take him, oh but I don't think you can
'Cause you ain't woman enough to take my man

Women like you, they come a dime a dozen
You can buy them anywhere
For you to get to him, I'd have to move over
And I'm gonna stand right here
It'll be over my dead body, so get out while you can
'Cause you ain't woman enough to take my man

Sometimes a man's caught looking at things that he don't need
He took a second look at you, but he's in love with me
Now I don't know where that leave's you, ah but I know where I stand
And you ain't woman enough to take my man

Women like you, they come a dime a dozen
You can buy them anywhere
For you to get to him, I'd have to move over
And I'm gonna stand right here
Well it'll be over my dead body, so get out while you can
'Cause you ain't woman enough to take my man
No you ain't woman enough to take my man 




"dear, you, someone that i couldn't write her name here. you've hurt and betrayed me so damn much. so sorry to you, you ain't woman enough to betray and hurt me. I'm too tough to be dropped and canceled. I'm who I'm"

nothing, but lies

have you ever trust someone more than you trust yourself? maybe you're not, but I ever have. i trust him because he's special for me. am i as special as  what i think? i don't know and never know. been lied by the one you trust the most. it is not a big problem just for the first and the last time and promise to change and not do the same thing again, i still can forgive. but what happen if he do the same mistake for second or the third time? it's a big NO! why? have you ever been lied by the one you trust the most? what it feels like? do you feel alone? not physically but mentally alone. do you feel helpless, hopeless, useless and unwanted? do you fell like a shit with empty future? do you feel distant and disconnected from the rest of the world? do you want to get away from everyone and everything? do you lack the motivation to do anything? do you want to sleep your days away because you're so fucking tired? do you feel depressed? Yes I do. when someone lied to me, i'll feel like i'm unwanted.

enough. forgive and forget. jangan jadikan itu penghalangmu untuk maju. girls, don't worry you're not alone, you still have friends. i know how it feels like, no matter how hurt you'll be just go straight don't look back, forgive and forget everything. everyone has it own dark sides, if you've been lied by someone you trust the most for the first time you have to understand them and you still have a time to give them another chances, just believe that they'll change better. but if you've been lied by them for the second or the third times after they promised you, go, it's their turn to understand you, you haven't another chances for them anymore. you've been hurt. don't give another chances or you'll hurt so damn deep, more and more. remember, once a liar will always be a liar. forget and forgive, keep calm and goodbye :)

"you had me at hello, lost me at goodbye, and everything in between, was nothing, but lies"

p.s: im too disappointed of someone i trust so i wrote here. sorry sorry deh buat yg ngerasa ya

You Can't Steal My May!

goodnight. 

selamat malam minggu buat yang merayakan dan selamat hari sabtu buat yg tidak merayakan. ah sebenernya lagi bete bangeeeetttttt *lo?* hah rehat sehari dari sibuknya persiapan ujian kenaikan kelas. okey skip it. why the time goes so fast? it's already june, 2nd 2012 and i think i really fell in love with may. i had spent more time with my best friends, more than usual. it's full of unforgettable stories.

Last May 13th 2012, a day after mayna's birthday, we (kental: wica me mayna nindyak deva and tegecong, mayna's boyfriend) went to ubud. none of us actually knows ubud well, tapi kita tetep nekat! cuma modal soktau dan akhirnya we lost in ubud. tersesat... so lucky we have friend named Dewik as our navigator, thanks by the way :D hihihi

@kakiang bakery

@bukit campuhan

strawberry parfait, so yummy :9

May 17th 2012, joining dipta's family to Bukit Lebah Temple at Batur, Kintamani. nervous but finally i can handled it. yuhuuu i'm so amazing. ta iloveyou huhuhu, i swear this sweet 17th May will never be forgotten. 

 

May 21st 2012, at night i went to my sister's birthday party at sushitei, oh no it didnt look like a birthday party, it looked like a family gathering. oh ya whatever. i really love sushi actually, so yummy and you know i ate too much and my mom too and my aunty, sister brother uncle too. as usual i never forgot to bring camera everywhere every moment. it was an unforgettable night with my very big family :)

May 26th 2012, another night with kentals. it actually was H-2 final test and we still have time to spend together with, we may not sister by blood but we're sister by heart *bighugs*. we went to kuta hmm beach walk (new mall at kuta with very good architecture and view) and oh ya i fell in love with pull&bear aztec skirt, it looked so cute! we had lunch, late lunch actually, at burger king dan itu ditraktir deva yuhuuu. dan selanjutnya kita bingung mau kemana, soalnya beach walk belum ada apa-apa. unplanned, we went to la plancha, spent about an hour there. that was a very beautiful night at kuta. i love kuta's view at night so much even if it's such a crowded town. after that we went to wita's home and goodbye... we'll never forget this daaaaayyy! so beautiful.

goodbye may, too much memories that will never be forgotten. June came faster and my may ended with those final test. yep no problem, i wish another next months will be better than this may but you can't steal my may yuhuu... it's time to sleep, goodnight goodbye have a nice day everybody <3