between the raindrops

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goodnight, i knew it's been the second weeks after new year.

happy new year everyone! I'm so sorry for this belated greeting, because i had no time to meet and greet or post something here before. 2013. hopefully it can be a better year than 2012. and hopefully all my dreams come true and everything's alright on the right track. actually i'm so happy in the beginner of this year because god still gave chances to be surrounded by my families, friends and all those people i loved. what's my resolutions? let it be my another-secrets.

anyway, today earth's so cruel and so cold. between the raindrops, my memories spin around my head. flash back in my previous year, there were so many things that i can learned from. sweet memories or even the bitters, they gave me something to learn, something that can make me even stronger, something that can make me understand what life is. life isn't always about finding someone or something then live with them, but also losing someone or something. 

2012 gave me so much memories. even if it hurt you, it also might gave you so many things to learn and so many things to remember. between the raindrops, in front my glasses window, i typed everything i've known, i've felt and i've learned from my bitter-sweet-2012. i called it my track-record. 

January-May, there was someone who always be there on my side, kept me close, understand me, taught me everything i never understand. June, broke up with him. it was the worst heartbreak i ever felt, so hurt. who i loved is the only one who hurt me so deep, so hurt. my June wasn't as easy as another months, even if it was a very long holiday. July, still had a "joyful" holiday and my heart still blinded by broken-heart. August, my first month on 12th grader. i wasn't ready for this because i knew my time on senior-high-school gonna end soon. September-October, school time, i had not enough time to have another holiday because school time had made me busy. November, Happy sweet seventeenth, dear IndahKPutri! on my day i was so happy with so many surprises from friends and families too. and finally i got my licenses card and identity card (ktp). and on this month I still tried to move on and i guess i can... December, the last-sweet-month. i still covered by this pain, i never had a courage to fall in love, too scared to try, too scared to be hurt again. i knew i never try to find them, i just wait for the only one man who can makes my heart beats faster and can makes me his only one, i wouldn't try to be with a wrong one. on new year's eve i had spent a high quality time with my big families at Bali Handara Kosaido, Bedugul. some of bitter memories played in my minds, memories of a year ago (skip it). 

at the first day on 2013, in the morning, i felt like i was the only one girl who's lucky! because my "closest-friend" came to my place at Bali Handara and we had some quality time too. yeahh just for a few hours but it was so memorable. thanks, my monkey-man.

2013! i'm ready for something new, for better things.  and i'm ready for my future, my bright-future. making all my dreams come true, and be a pride for my parents. become a success doctor and if i can, i want to be an interior designer too. i knew, my 2013 might not be as perfect as fairy tales, but surrounded by parents, families, friends and best-friends can make me feel complete. they and you complete me to catch all my dreams. 2013, please be my year. between the raindrops, i let my dreams flow away.....

end of season

gooodnight, this is my another-midnight-post. i just got home an hour ago and i feel so tired now but i can't sleep after my third times bath. i dont know how to describe my feeling this night. am i happy? am i sad? i should feel happy or sad? i dont know. just dont know. 

our lovely holiday is almost end. 2 days remain before new year eve. what i have done in my very lovely holiday? i've done too many things with every people i love. so happy  and i dont want this holiday ends soon! we want moremoremoreee holiday, Mam! as a 12grader, i know i have no more time to get on a normal holiday, it feels like i will have no more time to relax after this very-lovely-holiday.

because of it, 2 weeks, 14days of holiday i spent with my families and friends. i feel there was something different with these 14days in my life. i can further get to know myself, become more mature, more independent, and free but controlled.

i just got home after my very long trip with my beloved friends, IXA of SBI SMP 1 Denpasar who graduated 3 years ago. not all 22 of us can took apart on our trip, only half of us, 11 members, 4 man and 7 ladies, chaired by our lovely Igo, today December 27th. we gathered at my home at 12 but as usual as always NGARET. we went to kuta as we planned, and it spent long time to get there, Seminyak Square. blablablablablabla.......... super macet. seminyak was so crowded this day (not only today, always. think twice before go there) and it took too long time to get there. when we got there, we immediately headed to The Braga Cafe & Resto because we were hungry. after had dinner, we stuck and confused to go anywhere because the road was so crowded. it's traffic everywhere! finally we decided to go to Nav Karaoke. spent an hour there then we went home. 9.30pm i arrived at home, took a bath and now i'm sitting on my bed in front of my laptop, typing my experiences with tired body, sleepy head. and i just realized that the last few days i've always been coming home late. two days ago, on Christmas (Merry Christmas, everyone!) i've spent a high quality time with my best friends ever, my sisters, Kental. went to cinema to watch the must-watched-movie, 5CM at Galeria21. then had a very late lunch after movie at Warong Miyabi. i drove car to Centro but suddenly we changed direction to Nusa Dua, spent time at Pirates Bay, hahahihi dulu, didnt forget to take photos and we almost forgot that we had to go home and prepare gifts for our friends, Otit aka Gungtu. and blablablaaaaa......

left:mayna, nindya, me, wica, deva

and most important thing from this holiday, i learned that everyone really needs each other, we really need families and friends. what would become a holiday without them? it would be bored and flat! trust me... suwer dehhhh! even though sometimes it is really tiring hang out and spend a lot of time, money and effort too but for me nothing is more beautiful and precious than all those memories. the secrets we tell, the laughs we share, the photos we take and memories we keep those are the most valuable things in life. won't forget this holiday! suwerdeeehhh...
anyway this is my last holiday in senior high school, it was the end of season senior high school. furthermore it may not be as beautiful as these 14days. i'll keep it tight in my box of memories, my brain and my heart.
goodnight, have a nice holiday. see you on New Year <3

Thank God, I'm still alive

hey, it's nice to know that we're still alive after December 21st.

happy holiday everyone! let's go traveling. so long and i really miss to write random things over here. the 5th semester had been passed, and i was disappointed with my score on the last semester, but anyway i've done my very best. oya, i'm 17th now! finally i got my license, i was so happy, absolutely.

anyway i would like to thank to God for everything he had given to me, a family, many friends, best-friends, and enemy too. that was awesome being a part of them.and also thank to all my families and friends for a very beautiful surprise on my birthday, last November, 18th.
what i've done a couple months ago? many things! teenager's things, such as spent quality time with friends and family. went to some interesting place after final semester test with friends. prepared for yearbook's photos session. watched concert, Raisa and Secondhand Serenade's concert in Bali a few days ago. traveling with families. and do other things that normal teenagers always do when they have nothing to do on holiday. yes right! sleeping, eating, and then sleeping again, eating again, so on. girls, it's gonna be so much better spending holiday with your bestfriends doing some silly things together. can't wait to see and spend time with Kental on Christmas!!!

nothing to write again, i'm too sleepy and i think it's nice to sleep earlier.oya i think now i'm brave enough to fall in love again, but it's gonna be a very long story and i think i couldnt tell you right now, maybe on my next post. hey it's rainy outside, what a night! so goodnight, have a great holiday mogumogu <3

some things are better left unspoken

it's been October and its almost end. i was happy actually, because i was accepted at Medical Faculty of Maranatha University, Bandung. but in the other side many things make me feel useless and unsafe. what's wrong with me? everything doesn't go well as what i  expected. Upset. i have so many problems with my parents, they were too egoist, they just want to speak but none of them wants to listen. then a problem with my dearest bestfriend, Nyok. arrrggghhh he has a prospective girlfriend and she's so vicious. she was displeased with me sometimes she get jealous easily on me when me and him had a funny conversation on BBM, she was very restrict our friendship (me&nyok). Is she never had a bestfriend? poor you girl. dear you, i decided to call you Bitch, it doesn't matter if you are going out with my best friend, but please respect me as his bestfriend Bitchy snacky. haaahhh i really miss my bestfriend, i swear. now because of her we kept distance, we're not talking each other. i really miss how he treats me when i'm sad and really need advises and motivations also. now i have so much to tell to him but i can't. i miss our laughs. i miss the most the way he treats me like I was his little sister. our friendship is being tested, really. blaaahhhh..... then another problem is i really miss Utik! she was my bestfriend since childhood. our friendship has been 13years. very a long time and we were like sister and our family were like big family. She left me in Bali and continue her studies one year earlier than me in Jakarta at Indonesia University while I'm still a SHS's student. When there's no one would listen, she's the only one. then a few weeks ago i met a boy (because he's not yet a man), we had a very long conversation and as the times goes on he made me feel like i was the only one, the he left me. i didn't know what happen before, we just lost each other, we were not talking and we never had chat again, never ever. he lost. maybe he has eaten by dinosaur, rest in peace bro just wait and watch Karma will catch you.

duuhh everything around me seems like unfriendly to me. am i that strange? or God has done the best way to save me from all bad things? what can i do? nothing. who can i tell about it? no one. some things are better left unspoken. cheers up, pretty sugar. but i really thank to God, because he always gives me strength to stand on my feet to face and finish every problems that came to me with my own ways. 

love, trust. betrayed, broke up, the end. get back? never ever!

twinkle twinkle

goodnight, good sleep beauty princess

twinkle twinkle little stars, when there's nothing he shines upon show your little light. how i wonder what you are. twinkle twinkle through the night.

it's been a year since i moved here to my home sweet home. stayed and spent half of my day, everyday in a year, in my big-white-colored room, makes me feel so bored. i need to decorate my room. at least just give the light accent like it shown on the picture above. so cute right? yes of course! i really really want it to be realized! where i can get the lamps? waiiiiittt! aku baru sadar aku gak punya duit. raawwrrrr look into my wallet, there's not enough money to buy all those things to make that sweet night lamp. nonononoooo not enough money. mama won't lend me her money. i've spent too much on my holiday trip. a beautiful night lamp, twinkle in my room every night. how sweeeettt. okeoke jadi sekarang planning harus jadi kenyataan, HARUS! supaya gak boring dikamar malem2. I've to collect enough money as soon as possible! wish me luck. where i can get the lamps, anywaaaayyy? anyone?

ps: it's really unimportant post. i just need to write, there was no other ideas ya jadinya ini ajadeh :$ goodnight

from head to toe

what a confusing night. everything's spinning in my mind. what would I be? pretty rich? where will I continue my college? school of medicine or designer interior school? everything seems so different now. it's getting even harder and harder by time. time moves faster. in another hand, another problems were spinning in my mind too. a bitter sweet *bitter bitter* memory of mine were built up again. it's getting even closer to me now. we both know everything is very different now between us, and i especially know what the consequences i'll get after this. being left or being together with *again*. twice let down and no more the third times! that's what my logic said. but if my heart say no? or still believe that must be another chances? what must i do? you know I feel like I'm hanging without rope, walk without direction, fly without wings. everything's so confusing. school, life, love, are they really as important as what people said? getting older means must gets ready for more complicated things in life because everything will be harder and complicated and we must resolved itself. be mature is the only key. "if you're not clever enough, don't ever give up. there's always luckiness that may lead you for better life". I remember what Mr.X, my chemistry teacher, said "tidak boleh mendahului Tuhan. Jangan buru-buru pikir negatif, lakukan saja sebaik-baiknya, sisanya itu urusan Tuhan". but from head to toe, I swear! I really confused about what my future brings...

under my blanket

happy holiday everyone. so excited in these 2 weeks holiday. horaaaayyyyy!!! what's on my holiday? well, i will proudly tell you about this one. last August, 31st - September, 2nd 2012 me and my family had a highly quality holiday in Singapore. who don't know Singapore? it is one of the-must-visit-country and the country where technology is their closest friend. we've planned this holiday for a long long time ago and we decided not to visit Singapore again but planned to visit Bangkok. Unfortunately because of some reasons finally we decided to visit Singapore once again and tadaaaa without feeling bored we enjoyed our holiday here in Singapore. 4 days in Singapore with our lovely guide Mr. Alan from Malaysia were very interesting and really unforgettable. We visited the-must-visited-place and the amazing one was The Universal Studio of Singapore at Sentosa Island. On our last visit longlongtimeago before, we didn't had enough time to visit US because my father was very busy with his school in Singapore school of medicine. On the 2nd days of our travelling,we fulled with joy and happiness at US Singapore. we tried all the rides games: transformers, Madagascar, ancient Egypt, Jurassic park,  Hollywood, New York, and also Red & Blue Track Roller-coaster.  

My favorite one and the one that I really couldn't and won't forget forever is the underground roller-coaster at Ancient Egypt. It was a freaking scary roller coaster! can you imagine? yes it's so recommended for you. you won't regret after trying this one. it is so cool you know wuhuuu... when i entered the Ancient Egypt it didn't look like there's something scary inside here until i reached where the queue there were so many people with the face of fear. my father and my sister looked so scared and so did I. But there was no way to exit and we finally tried that underground roller-coaster. it was dark inside, anyway, we couldn't see the route of this roller-coaster make it more scarier. we just screamed as loud as we can. 

Ancient Egypt

Sci-Fi City - Transformers

Still at Sentosa Island, after finished all games at US we had dinner at one of favorite Restaurant here. after dinner Mr. Peter picked us to Songs Of The Sea Show. The show was really amazing. I forgot the story told in this show but I've recorded all the show *sorry it couldn't be posted here, the size were too big* 

this second day ended after the show of Song Of The Sea, we went back to hotel at 183 Selegie road and took a rest and prepared for the next amazing day. Goodnight...

Good morning, 3rd day in Singapore. We had a tour to Jurong Bird Park, City Tour and tried Singapore flyer. After it all done, Mr.Alan dropped us to Orchard road and we went shopping!!! yuhuuuuu... my father bought this for me tadaaaa 2pairs of the original VANS shoes. so lovely. ohya and one free bag at price of 56SD, how lucky.

the 4th day in Singapore meant our last day of travelling. we walked from selegie to orchard then we walked to Bugis to buy souvenirs for our relatives in Indonesia. It was a tiring day because we walked half day long. Selegie to Orchard actually very close by car but it is so far on foot. at 3pm Mr.Alan picked us at hotel then he dropped us at Changi airport. we boarded at 8.25pm and touched down Bali at 12am. 

so lovely 4days in Singapore. that was unforgettable. Now i'm here under my blanket with my phone besides me and my stitch doll on my bed, preparing myself to face the truth if today is already Monday, September, 3rd 2012 and it means holiday is gonna end shortly. I'm hungry anyway so i'm decided to end up writing this post. just wait for the next post, keep on reading blogwalking. good afternoon, happy holiday \( 'o' )/

dear Hinduism 
all over the world,

Happy Galungan and Kuningan

May Dharma leads us to be better person

Sang Hyang Widhi bless us...

Jegeg Bagus Badung, Benoa 2012

Jegeg Bagus Badung 2012 held on Thursday, 26 Juli 2012 by Government of Badung to explore the potential of young generation. and i'm taking a part in this competition. luckily I got the second place, the runner up. this was my very first time join a competition like this. 

Finalis Jegeg 2012

winner of jegeg bagus badung, benoa 2012

me & my partner

a brand new day

holiday is over. time will move faster and everything will be harder to face. now i'm 12th grader and everything will harder to be accounted for. welcome senior year, a brand new day. a new life's page. what we need is a commitment and we know it's a competition. a competition of where will be our college and what will we be? and everything needs willpower to be success. btw it's gonna be my last post in this month (maybe) hihi i've to be focus on this semester. wish me luck, a brand new day.

quotes of the day

#4

"expectation is the root of all heartache" 
william shakespeare 

i agree with this quote. so from now on please be real, stop expecting too high, stop wanting someone or something that you've known it'll never be yours. just be real and you'll free from heartache. stay young and pretty and free but limited. 

quotes of the day

#3

"letting go is not always about forgetting the past, but living and growing for a better future. being single won't give you 100% happiness, but it will keep you from the pain"

crush

it's been a month. i still can feel this heartache (hurt) but i think it's better standing alone than standing with people who hurt me. yeah it's right, almost 100% right. doing positive things and spending quality time with friends slowly cure this hurt and over time i think it's enough to continue to dissolve in these grief. people come and go easily in my life. they come with new things i never imagine i could have before. some bring happiness and some just leave a mere expectation. right, that's just what people do as attention seeker and that's the easiet way to hate each other. what is life? what is love? they are just such complicated things that couldn't be separated. nowadays, pure and fake are indistinguishable. the fake looks so pure, while we don't even know it was just a shit actually. this is why sometimes i don't easily believe in people. a trauma of being hurt. a betrayal trauma.

cobalah mengerti

holiday session #part2

July, 1st 2012

so, I got it.
Bahagia itu adalah...

spent such an amazing holiday with nindyak, trisnu and dewik at Bedugul. it couldnt be described. it was soooo amazing holiday trip ever. we had picnic at Eka Karya Botanical Garden Bedugul carried so many foods and snacks, tried outbound (mission failed, too expensive and we didnt bring enough money), have fun on the road around botanical garden (I meant skating on the rise and falls street around it), went to strawberry stop just wanted to see strawberry fields, and the last and the most amazing got wet because of an accident tried speed boat at Beratan Lake (unplanned), and didnt forget to take photos.

left: trisnu, dewik, nindya, me

strawberry stop's field

get wet and it's so cold you knooooww (beratan lake)

way back to denpasar

uhuuuuwww you know? this is such an unforgettable holiday ever, especially trip at Beratan lake =D shocked by an accident of the speed boat, we got wet and almost fell from the bout because the boat rudder rope broke, and stupidly we thought we've been tricked by the boat driver's maneuver but it was truly an accident. we became wet and shivered, especially nindya. time's out, we went back to denpasar and prepared to watch for Euro Cup Final Espana vs. Italy. so lovely day! we promised to have some more days out together.

goody lucky, July

#JulyWishes

Be brave, wise, tough, stronger, smarter, independent, unbeatable can't be stopped, honest, polite, stay pretty and keep focus and control. I'm possible to forget and forgive every mistake and they who ever hurts me. welcome back the real Indah K. Putri. 

stop it stupid!

stop thinking about him, he never thinks about you anymore. stop stalking him. stop waiting him. stop wanting him. stop wishing for him. stop believing him, he's such a great liar. stop trying to catch his attention. he'll never give you same responds as before. gogogo stop

stopstopsetoooooppp!

it is just the matter of time, surely you can live without him, there are so many guys better than himself.somuchbetter. stop pretending and believing and expecting. you're okay so much better without him. free and freedoms. say goodbye for your past from now on and stop hurting yourselves. byeeee ~

holiday session #part1

what we wanted is coming! holiday holiday holidaaaaayyy! are you ready to go? aku siap aku siap!

yesterday, June 21st 2012, i had my first holiday trip without any plans before with devipramesti, diannoviyanti and ayutami. The sudden ideas always more fun! depik sent me a message to hang out with ayutami and nopik, without much thought I joint them. depik picked me up at home at about 1.30PM then we went to Denpasar Junction, while nopik and ayutami already waited us there. first thing we did is bought some snack at bread talk and our favorite partner, AQUA hihihi. have a quality time at inul vizta, we sang some galau song and we were happy! after 2 hours spent time at inul vizta, we had lunch at cafe teduh and our trip ended when depik drove me home.

another holiday another trip with another friends and families were waiting. too many plans for this amazing holiday before i have focus for college preparation. happy holiday guysssss <3

rolling in the deep

i fell in love with this old song from beyonce. can't stop listening this song, so favorite <3