Rapunzel is Back!

hello august. been half year not talking to you, i've missed writing here. 

4 months later this year will end soon. it means since those seven month of silence, so many things had changed, happened, and that things changed me become more mature (mature? yeasssshhh that was just my opinion, dont arguing with me about my maturity). 

this time right now when i was writing this letter, i was in my task making a paper called summary-synthesis about the current progress of dengue vaccine. i'm so excited but i'm fully tired. 

then forget about those journals and other things that going to explode my head, forget it for awhile. i just want to write! first, i want to tell you about my university-social-high-quality-life. i mean that, i should have a good quality of life due to many task i've to do during midnigh, sleep during day, and spent 9 or even more longer hours at campus. campus live never seem as nice as what FTV told you. NEVER! it's happier yes when you have no task, no exams, not more than 9 hours spent in campus, free day, holiday and good friends. but a day without task or committee task is such impossible thing. but i tried always try to enjoy this campus life. second, i'm single happy high quality-jomblo, my friends said. i've just broke up with the bastard that left without a certain reason why. third, im surrounded by many gorgeous people that i was never found before. they were just amazing. fourth, i met Zetta, she's a crazy-brave-intelligent-smart-independent girl that teaches me everything. she's braver than the FBI agent, and she's really smart girl. fiifth, i met deta and nadia, we were bestfriend. me zetta detta nadia, were bestfriend. sixth, i met SGD B12. this is a discussion group to discuss and gossip about anything available and not available in the study guide. i love them so much. my-1-year university become happier because their silliness, but the next year we may not together as a team anymore. seventh, there's someone who sent me email, try to remind me something that i couldnt arrange until now, he reminds me that i have a blog so i'm typing now! i couldnt believe the power of secret admirer. i guess i know him but i actually am dont want guessing the wrong person. okay then, i have to get back to my journals and summary-synthesis, tomorrow i'll send this introduction to my supervisor for revising and reviewing. wish me luck and reach A good score. good day good love good luck!

Blossom Again

kinda very long time not writing. i've been very busy for the whole months preparing for college and finally i'm here after finishing the tests. and finally im accepted as Medical Student at Udayana University. what a blessing! after all those sweat and hard works finally they all being paid. very thankful to God, and especially for everyone who support me for my weakness and strength. here welcome the new me! i'm not a little girl anymore, i'm today mature enough to differentiate the goodness and the bad. Blossom again beauty lady...

It's almost a year of being a single lady, but it was not a problem for me. I have so much time spent with my girls, having fun together forgot everything that hurt me. anyway, a few months ago, i have such a very close relation with my friend. he is the old friend of me. we shared, we spent time together, we act like we were more than any other friends but still havent right time to get in a relationship of more than friends. because he was my bestfriend's ex. but i do really fall in love with him. i dont know why, it may just because he was the only person who always being with me and always there when i needed anyone to talk or chat. you might think i'm a backstabber or bad girl, it's all up to you whatever you thought about me i just dont care because i am who i am. i'm not as bad as you might think. everyone have right to be in love or being loved. 

and this love blossom again. 9th August is such an unforgettable day for both of us. after knowing each other have been accepted on the same faculty in the university, he asked me to have such a celebration. we went to Ayana Resort, Rock Bar. we just sightseeing, there were no place to take a seat because that day was very crowded at the bar. so we decided to move to the beach near the resort, the scenery was unpaidable, beautiful, perfect. he asked me to stay while he wanted to take something that left behind in the car. i just waited for not a very long time nor a short time, he came back with a bouquet of white pink and red roses. kind of beautiful roses, my favorite one. asked me the question that i never know the answer before. finally here we are, we're not again hidding from everyone for our status. and im just sad because i think that there are people that allude and talking about me in social media like twitter that i think anyone could read them. they were my friends. but that was not a very big problem, because for me that means that they were not a friends of me, not the real friends of me. Blossom again, Princess!

between the raindrops

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goodnight, i knew it's been the second weeks after new year.

happy new year everyone! I'm so sorry for this belated greeting, because i had no time to meet and greet or post something here before. 2013. hopefully it can be a better year than 2012. and hopefully all my dreams come true and everything's alright on the right track. actually i'm so happy in the beginner of this year because god still gave chances to be surrounded by my families, friends and all those people i loved. what's my resolutions? let it be my another-secrets.

anyway, today earth's so cruel and so cold. between the raindrops, my memories spin around my head. flash back in my previous year, there were so many things that i can learned from. sweet memories or even the bitters, they gave me something to learn, something that can make me even stronger, something that can make me understand what life is. life isn't always about finding someone or something then live with them, but also losing someone or something. 

2012 gave me so much memories. even if it hurt you, it also might gave you so many things to learn and so many things to remember. between the raindrops, in front my glasses window, i typed everything i've known, i've felt and i've learned from my bitter-sweet-2012. i called it my track-record. 

January-May, there was someone who always be there on my side, kept me close, understand me, taught me everything i never understand. June, broke up with him. it was the worst heartbreak i ever felt, so hurt. who i loved is the only one who hurt me so deep, so hurt. my June wasn't as easy as another months, even if it was a very long holiday. July, still had a "joyful" holiday and my heart still blinded by broken-heart. August, my first month on 12th grader. i wasn't ready for this because i knew my time on senior-high-school gonna end soon. September-October, school time, i had not enough time to have another holiday because school time had made me busy. November, Happy sweet seventeenth, dear IndahKPutri! on my day i was so happy with so many surprises from friends and families too. and finally i got my licenses card and identity card (ktp). and on this month I still tried to move on and i guess i can... December, the last-sweet-month. i still covered by this pain, i never had a courage to fall in love, too scared to try, too scared to be hurt again. i knew i never try to find them, i just wait for the only one man who can makes my heart beats faster and can makes me his only one, i wouldn't try to be with a wrong one. on new year's eve i had spent a high quality time with my big families at Bali Handara Kosaido, Bedugul. some of bitter memories played in my minds, memories of a year ago (skip it). 

at the first day on 2013, in the morning, i felt like i was the only one girl who's lucky! because my "closest-friend" came to my place at Bali Handara and we had some quality time too. yeahh just for a few hours but it was so memorable. thanks, my monkey-man.

2013! i'm ready for something new, for better things.  and i'm ready for my future, my bright-future. making all my dreams come true, and be a pride for my parents. become a success doctor and if i can, i want to be an interior designer too. i knew, my 2013 might not be as perfect as fairy tales, but surrounded by parents, families, friends and best-friends can make me feel complete. they and you complete me to catch all my dreams. 2013, please be my year. between the raindrops, i let my dreams flow away.....

end of season

gooodnight, this is my another-midnight-post. i just got home an hour ago and i feel so tired now but i can't sleep after my third times bath. i dont know how to describe my feeling this night. am i happy? am i sad? i should feel happy or sad? i dont know. just dont know. 

our lovely holiday is almost end. 2 days remain before new year eve. what i have done in my very lovely holiday? i've done too many things with every people i love. so happy  and i dont want this holiday ends soon! we want moremoremoreee holiday, Mam! as a 12grader, i know i have no more time to get on a normal holiday, it feels like i will have no more time to relax after this very-lovely-holiday.

because of it, 2 weeks, 14days of holiday i spent with my families and friends. i feel there was something different with these 14days in my life. i can further get to know myself, become more mature, more independent, and free but controlled.

i just got home after my very long trip with my beloved friends, IXA of SBI SMP 1 Denpasar who graduated 3 years ago. not all 22 of us can took apart on our trip, only half of us, 11 members, 4 man and 7 ladies, chaired by our lovely Igo, today December 27th. we gathered at my home at 12 but as usual as always NGARET. we went to kuta as we planned, and it spent long time to get there, Seminyak Square. blablablablablabla.......... super macet. seminyak was so crowded this day (not only today, always. think twice before go there) and it took too long time to get there. when we got there, we immediately headed to The Braga Cafe & Resto because we were hungry. after had dinner, we stuck and confused to go anywhere because the road was so crowded. it's traffic everywhere! finally we decided to go to Nav Karaoke. spent an hour there then we went home. 9.30pm i arrived at home, took a bath and now i'm sitting on my bed in front of my laptop, typing my experiences with tired body, sleepy head. and i just realized that the last few days i've always been coming home late. two days ago, on Christmas (Merry Christmas, everyone!) i've spent a high quality time with my best friends ever, my sisters, Kental. went to cinema to watch the must-watched-movie, 5CM at Galeria21. then had a very late lunch after movie at Warong Miyabi. i drove car to Centro but suddenly we changed direction to Nusa Dua, spent time at Pirates Bay, hahahihi dulu, didnt forget to take photos and we almost forgot that we had to go home and prepare gifts for our friends, Otit aka Gungtu. and blablablaaaaa......

left:mayna, nindya, me, wica, deva

and most important thing from this holiday, i learned that everyone really needs each other, we really need families and friends. what would become a holiday without them? it would be bored and flat! trust me... suwer dehhhh! even though sometimes it is really tiring hang out and spend a lot of time, money and effort too but for me nothing is more beautiful and precious than all those memories. the secrets we tell, the laughs we share, the photos we take and memories we keep those are the most valuable things in life. won't forget this holiday! suwerdeeehhh...
anyway this is my last holiday in senior high school, it was the end of season senior high school. furthermore it may not be as beautiful as these 14days. i'll keep it tight in my box of memories, my brain and my heart.
goodnight, have a nice holiday. see you on New Year <3

Thank God, I'm still alive

hey, it's nice to know that we're still alive after December 21st.

happy holiday everyone! let's go traveling. so long and i really miss to write random things over here. the 5th semester had been passed, and i was disappointed with my score on the last semester, but anyway i've done my very best. oya, i'm 17th now! finally i got my license, i was so happy, absolutely.

anyway i would like to thank to God for everything he had given to me, a family, many friends, best-friends, and enemy too. that was awesome being a part of them.and also thank to all my families and friends for a very beautiful surprise on my birthday, last November, 18th.
what i've done a couple months ago? many things! teenager's things, such as spent quality time with friends and family. went to some interesting place after final semester test with friends. prepared for yearbook's photos session. watched concert, Raisa and Secondhand Serenade's concert in Bali a few days ago. traveling with families. and do other things that normal teenagers always do when they have nothing to do on holiday. yes right! sleeping, eating, and then sleeping again, eating again, so on. girls, it's gonna be so much better spending holiday with your bestfriends doing some silly things together. can't wait to see and spend time with Kental on Christmas!!!

nothing to write again, i'm too sleepy and i think it's nice to sleep earlier.oya i think now i'm brave enough to fall in love again, but it's gonna be a very long story and i think i couldnt tell you right now, maybe on my next post. hey it's rainy outside, what a night! so goodnight, have a great holiday mogumogu <3