just two choices

"tell me how to be the girl you want and you need the most"

this morning i feel like a stranger to everyone at home and my boyfriend. too fragile and weak. without spirits and without motivation to win this world. i know everything in me is going wrong. but this is life. i have to face the truth, that life is just about these two choices. 

1. be strong and tough or become weak and let them easily hurt me.
2. be honest or become a backstabber.
3. stay or leave.
4. be more patient or end up all these games.
5. be polite or impolite
6. love with all this heart or just give them empty hopes.
7. become a winner or just being a loser.

life is hard. the stronger may win these games but the tougher will always can stand and stay bravely even if their hearts are too fragile and weak. 

so, who am i? i don't know who i am. 

life was just a drama. people have many faces to face this life. fake. but people are people, sometimes we change our minds. they who can't be tough know it's killing them constantly to see and to know that people they love 180degrees changes become someone they never know. i see everyone around me change, my parents, my family, my bestfriends, my boyfriend, and me also.

we easily make mistakes but hard and forget the way to apologize and forgive. we can easily make them hurt but never know how to make them smile and light up their world. we easily talk about lies but bothersome to tell the truths. we easily do the bad things but never want to do a good thing. we easily play drama but never want to get karma. is it fair? no, but it is real.

life must go on. don't ever give up to this life. stay tough and strong, let the world knows that you're strong enough to play and win these games. you're not alone, friends are still exist to help you when you need. burn your spirits. xoxo~


ps: i didnt know why i write and post this article, when i wrote this i feel my spirits are burned. it motivates me when im down.